Dream 3-Last night, I dreamt that I was by a river that was very brown and dirty. I jumped in and tried to swim and got caught in a net, somehow I escape,climb out of the water and than started kissing a close friend on mine (for the record not Craig).

Dream 4- This morning after taking Sid to school-I was riding a skate board that was long and made of a rotten board. It only had two wheels. I was riding it to Century II for accept some sort of award. When I got there I broke the skateboard in two pieces. I was talking to my friend Andrew from Paper Airplanes. I'm not sure what we were talking about but it was making me feel very uncomfortable. After I got the award I went to my ex's house in Okla. It was very bright in the living room, there were yellow curtains hanging everywhere even over the walls. There was a light blue couch that was very dirty. I felt nervous and strange. When he walked in he started to say something but I couldn't hear him and then I woke up. He looked exactly the same as he did in my last dream, hair down, those jeans with too many holes in them and in all the wrong places, no shoes and no shirt.

In other news-

Last night at 11pm, I was sitting on the couch after my bath and my good friend Eric walked in the back door. He was suppose to come up on Monday but things didn't work out the way he thought they were going to and decided to surprise me. I was happy to see him. we stayed up late talking and I drifted off to sleep in his arms. Eric and I have an odd relationship. We were at one time romantically involved but he wanted to be in an open relationship and I didn't, and still don't feel like that is something I am capable of, so we have remained very close friends. He is always there for me no matter what. We often times, in fact most of the time, do not agree on anything, butt somehow have managed to remain close close friends. We are able to agree to disagree because at the end of the day it is not our differences that have kept us close but our love and respect for each other. It is such an easy thing for the two of us to do and if he had wanted to be with just me when we were dating I am sure I would have tried to stay with him for as long as it would have lasted. He just doesn't believe in relationships that limit someone from exploring other people, and I don't believe that it is possible to have true intimacy if you are going to try to be on that level with more than one person. He has this way of reminding me that I am a hard to deal with woman and usually encourages to stand my ground. He believes in me and I love him so much for that. He is a very good friend.

I didn't go to work today as I had to wait for a new fridge that did not come again today as it is still lost. I really wish they would find it. My dining room is full of stuff from the kitchen and I want to clean things up a bit but it's impossible as I have no where to put anything till I can move everything back to the kitchen. Eric distracted me, so I didn't get started on my paper till much later then I had wanted to but I think I found some decent sources. I'm planning on trying to get by the library tomorrow after I get done teaching.

We had lunch together and then he went to try and scout some places for his new film and after I got done tutoring we went and had coffee at the Riverside Perk. He tried to set me up with one of his friends from high school but I wasn't into it. His name was Chris and he was nice but not my type. I ended up talking to a friend from school while Eric and Chris caught up with each other. He left at 7 and after I help Sid with his homework I finally did my own research. I have a bit of a cold and my stomach is still all messed up, otherwise I would probably be at Kirbys tonight for the singer songwriter night, but it seemed my best bet to stay home and rest a bit.

I got out the "box of things from boys" a while ago. I found a note my ex left me one morning next to some of my dog's poop that he kept trying to throw away but I got out of the trash. I remember when he asked why I wanted to save it I said because one day we could say that while there was not many things that documented our relationship, someday maybe we would be able to say that was fine, because there was a lot of love between us and that was what really mattered.

I guess I was wrong.

As I was writing this I got a text message from my friend Adam telling me that the girl he has been dating for a while now asked him to marry her tonight. They are the fourth couple I have introduced who have gone this far. Funny. I can pick partners for other people but tend to pick the way wrong men for myself. Craig and I have had a running joke about arranged marriage for a few weeks now but in India I am untouchable. I am a burden now that I am a single mother and divorced.