No dreams to report, which is a bit of a relief.

I have been doing a lot of thinking about what stage in the grieving process I am at. When my ex and I went through a couple of days of not speaking I think I was in the denial stage. Then I went through the anger stage. I think that started when he left, as up to that point I had thought we were going to work it out. I have accepted his leaving, so where am I now? I have always thought with break-ups the last stage is forgiveness. I have to forgive him for 1. lying to me about where he was and 2. losing hope and not trying harder. This may take a while.

I don't believe that we ever totally ever get over someone we have loved. I know that in some ways I am not over a few of my ex's, but I have forgiven them and try not let the past interfere with my present (this is much harder than it looks since I have so many trust issues that are left over residue of my past). I am trying to let go of the past as it seems to be one of the things that keeps coming up over and over again in my horoscopes. I think now, for today, it is the last five months that I have to let go of. I am working towards that in more ways than I am not.

I am remembering that I was really happy before we started dating. That is where I want to be again. Now I just have to make a plan as to how to do that.