I stood outside in the sun today, stared up between the branches of the trees, the sky was so blue and as cloudless as I am empty.

I came inside and took a too long nap. I dreamt but I don't remember what they were.


Woke up, went and got coffee and Sid from school, took him to the ortho for an appointment 2 hours early, left, went to the recycling center, came home and took everything out of the kitchen again, went back to the ortho, came back home, to see that the new fridge was here but I had to put all the shelves in and I don't read pictures, found out I am getting no funding to go to AWP but everyone else in my department is, took three dying plants outside, talked to Anne in an effort to cheer up, took Sid to see his other doctor, had more coffee, stopped and picked up some dinner, and am now home and just sad. Sid has had to deal with me being down. Things just aren't going very well. But, at least the new fridge finally came. We're going to my mom's in a bit to watch to finish watching some mini-series they started watching last night.

I still haven't started my paper.

Maybe I should go out tonight?