No dreams last night.

Today, I said "Goodbye" to my ESL class. I won't be seeing them again till the final. They were a great group of students and I am glad I was able to be their teacher. They were always happy when I walked into the class and that made teaching them that much more enjoyable.

I will see my other class again on Wednesday and am lucky enough to know that some of them will be following me to my 101 class in the spring. They all worked very had this semester and I am proud of them in so many ways.


I love teaching. Before I started I had no idea what it was I would do after i was done with school. I know I will always write but that may not pay all the bills for a long time and possibly ever so it is good to know I have found something I can find joy in. Teaching is something I can do without harming others in fact it only helps even if a student only learns one small fact they leave my room knowing more then they knew before.

This is something I would share with Nathan and another thing I miss about our relationship. He loves teaching as much as I do. He taught me many things when we were dating. I wish he wouldn't have let my knowledge on some things made feel him bad the way he did. We came from very different backgrounds and it always made sense to me that I would know more about some things and he would know more about other things.

I am not feeling sad or angry anymore. I'm fine with him leaving in more ways than I am not. I have always known what it is I want in my life and as I do I don't see why at some point I won't have those things.

Here is the list-

I want to keep writing at the level I am at and to keep reaching new points in my writing.

I want to keep teaching.

I want to move away from Wichita. It is time for me to move on and see what else is out there. I am still thinking of going to Okla, as it is much easier to get certified to teach there, and maybe Colo. I had thought about Chicago, but it is too pricey. There are a few other places I want to look at before I make my final choice.

I want to meet the man who I will spend more than a few months or weeks with. I am ready to settle down. I like waking up next to someone, having someone to come home to and spend time with. I like the idea of spending 30 years with someone. I miss having someone to laugh with and to lay in bed and talk to. I'm not really lonely though. I have lots and lots of friends to spend time with but I do sometimes feel like I am missing out on something when I see my friends who are happy and in love.

I want to travel overseas but I don't think I will teach overseas till Sid is done with high school. Because of his health issues I'm not sure that this is what would be best for him. I will have summers to explore the world in two years and I can wait till then to do so.