And, really I'm tired of counting the days since I've quit, but I feel like I need to cause there are still some times when I do want to smoke, and until that urges totally passes I think it is important to keep track of how many days I have between me and my choice to change this part of my life.
So, today I've been suffering for a lot of anxiety. I went to the gym too and usually that helps me to not feel so anxious but it didn't today. Smoking used to be what I used to help me forget I was having an anxiety attack. I guess I'm lucky that I haven't been having more anxiety than I have had over the past month.
My day was sort of odd. I went to the gym but forgot a towel so I had to come back home to shower, than I was taking the dog out and locked myself out. Neither of these things bothered me that much though. I can't think of these two small things as bad things. I thought about about how it could have really changed my mood and how my happiness was all my own choice today.
Which is the other thing I have been thinking about a lot today. Why can't I just let myself be happy? Because I am happy.
10 days...
