Things I realized today:

I don't need him. I long for him and that is very different from need. the last person I really needed was Ian and that left me empty and lost.

He dodge my question of when we would see each other again. He is either 1) trying to let me down easy or 2) has to look at his onw time table to see what will work for him or 3) was running late to work as usual. I have a feeling it is somewhere between 2 and 3.

He recieved mt first letter yesterday. Two more to go.