Three months ago today I was in Iowa laying in a hotel room falling deeply in love. It seems for some reason important to acknowledge this date. I have never told a man that I love them before they say it first and I think I did that night because it felt so right for the first time in so many years. I had stopped believing that love like that was even possible. It was the stuff in movies but it was not real life. In real life, love like that doesn't happen.

My friend, Jason, explained to me that time travel was not really possible. That there was no way to go back in time so we might as well always focus on the here and now.

So, right now I am alone in my living room on a Friday with a towel on my head and watching bad television. That is just where my life is right now, but it won't always be this way. It will get better.