It's been a week since I haven't heard from him

Maybe he's dead.

I'm a mess.

I had missed him here and there over the last few weeks, but it was manageable till yesterday. I'm blaming it on yoga. My instructor said we were doing some heart charka opening poses.

It may have to do with I went out with a guy I know. It was a date. He's vaguely interesting, nice looking, intelligent, but he talked through the movie we watched together and he tried in settle ways to argue with me about things.

Okay, it's true, I don't like to be challenged on some topics. I think everyone should have healthcare, and vote, this is not a reason to question my motives. And, he doesn't vote. I can't live with that. Yes, I know that we probably have as much of a corrupt system as any other country but it's my right as a woman, a right not many other women have in this world.

And he challenges me in a way I don't care for.

I want to be liked for who I am today.

What I really want to do--

cry...