No dreams last night again and I am thankful. My dreams become increasing odd and I not fond of the uneasy feeling I have upon waking.

I'm so tired even though I slept late today. I once again have a cold and am still dealing with stomach issues. I have lost quite a bit of weight. Not really how I wanted to lose weight but I'll take what I can get. I've started taking my vitamins again so hopefully my health will improve soon. My mom and Sid have been ill a lot lately and I think we're just passing around our germs.

I had a nice evening last night walking around Commerce popping in and out of galleries. I saw some decent shows, had a beer with a man I had dance with a while ago at Barleycorns. He's a nice guy but is intimidated because my level education is higher than his. Too bad. I would probably go on a date with him. He wander away after a while and I ran into my friend James. We've taken to holding hands in public lately, and he gave me a quick kiss on the cheek as he left to go to Blank Page and I went to pick up Sid. We have been friends for years and have on and off flirted with dating but nothing has ever come to it. I doubt anything will but it was nice to sit close side by side next to him for a moment. He has taught me a lot about friendship, love, and how to hold my tongue when necessary.

I had plan on staying home most of the day and picking up the house and working on my paper, but my friend Kyle came by and than Mara and Klya stopped by and we all decided to go out and do a bit of shopping. We wanted to go to Funky Junk but it was closed so we went by Emily's store and Aspen Traders, where I bought a cute white wool hat that I already got a black stain on and will now have to take to HatMan Jack's for cleaning. It is super cute! Kyle and I went to the DAV and I got a funny little suitcase and a sweet dress. Afterwards, I met Melissa at Panera for a quick talk before she leaves for Conn. to met her boyfriends parents.

Joe Ross, the guy who I almost started dating last summer, who I was hanging out with a lot before I realized my feelings were stronger for Nathan, works there and after he called my order out in this super sexy voice told me that I look especially cool and asked me to have a drink with him when he got off work. So, at 8:30 we're meeting for a drink. Since Joe has been back I have to admit it has crossed my mind if maybe I picked the wrong man last summer when I was standing on the line between the two of them. He plays the drums in two bands and is always touring, but he really likes Sid.

I'm not sure as of today what I want. I am in some ways ready to move on but really scared of getting hurt again. There is someone who I am really attracted to, but that seems really impossible right now and I am trying to be realistic about that situation. So, I will go and have a drink and relax a bit since tomorrow I have some serious rearranging of my life to start focusing on.