Sometimes it is something like a sunrise to make everything feel a bit better in the world.

Last night I wrote Bjorn a letter asking him to move to Wichita for the summer. I'm not sure how well I really wrote out my case for the move but hopefully it was enough and if not the worse he can say is 'no' and then at least I'll know where I stand and can decided from there my next move. It's not easy this waiting. I hate it. But, I also love him and miss him so much. I have been sleepwalking for months now and I need it to end in some way or another. It's so hard to be without him. I can't really remember what it was like before anymore in some ways.